I dreamed last night. I dreamed a man came to the house to rob us, saw me, and decided to rape me instead. But I fought back. I took up a bowl and smashed his head in. I smashed the bowl right through his head until he was dead. I must have hit him a […]
In Defiance
There is a “stage” process when a person heals. For a rape victim, there are variations on how a person may handle… re-establishing control over their bodies. Here is what I have been doing. Painting the house. This established control over the change in my environment and helps ground me as well as mark my […]
Breaking Free Conceived
So! After reading Broken you can imagine I am at the end of my sanity and needed to take some time off. I’ve been spending these last two weeks baking, playing Skyrim (Legendary expansion on the PS3. I’m a thieving/murdering Khajiit), cooking, cleaning, and painting the house. I’ve also been thinking a lot about my […]
7 Steps of healing that you never knew about
I am not a professional, and my theories are not to be taken as advice. My advice is to speak to your family doctor. That is where you begin. They will point you in the right direction and guide you. I am simply a philosopher who spends a lot of my time reflecting on my […]
Protected: Six Months Later: Where am I now?
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Liar
“He called me a liar,” I said gazing out the window. Judith’s stare bore into the back of my head, but I didn’t care. I only watched the rain fall. “It’s as if… the heavens are crying for me.” “So he read Broken and he called you liar,” Judith said. “How do you feel?” […]
Becoming One: A Story of Triumph Over Dissociative Identity Disorder
Welcome Guest Blogger, Charlene Jones. Charlene is currently co-authoring a book with me: Blog Bits and Tour Tips. Becoming One: A Story of Triumph Over Dissociative Identity Disorder Sarah E Olsen We believe unconsciously that we arrive in this life a complete picture, but somehow through what happens when Life commingles with “Me” […]
Broken Release Party
As you may know, Broken released on 9/11 for reasons I explain in the posts published on 9/11. Out of respect for those who died on 9/11, I kept marketing to a minimum and avoided pushing my book. 9/11 is a time to reflect, heal, and share our trauma. Therefore, I have put off pushing […]
Reflections…
Sometimes, there are no words. Sometimes, we’re just too broken to speak. And sometimes… you finally find the words… Try to remember when life was so tender When no one wept except the willow. – Try To Remember from “The Fantasticks“ I’m sorry, New York for the pain and the hell. I’m […]
Raped on 9/11
Definition does everything to help us determine what something is and where it belongs. Security is the be all end all in growth. When an individual lacks security, they invite fear. Fear leads to hate, hate leads to the dark side. Yoda wasn’t wrong. On 9/11 2001, every American had their security stripped from them. […]