I need to talk and I think I finally have it in me to talk. There’s a lot so… Everything snowballed these last few weeks and it all just kind of hit the bottom this week. I have BPD, PTSD, Bipolar, am in weekly therapy sessions with CBT and DBT along with two meds. I’ve […]
Almost Peace
Accept my vulnerabilities. I permit a slight chuckle. I don’t even know what they are. My mind feels frail. As if my mental armor has been thinned from therapy. I have less control over my reactions. I feel raw and naked. “Who am I?” This all started with those words, didn’t it? “What do you […]
One More Day…
I want to say, “Please let me be. Please let me go. I love my husband too much to risk losing him or hurting him ever again. And talking to you, connecting with you would do just that. There’s too much I don’t know about right now. Too much that just… I’m too messed up […]
Fractured Minds and Shattered Glass
Numb. Feel nothing. Shut it down. I slipped into my mind, into the depths where everything was black and nothing—no voice, no pain—could reach me. “Back again, huh?”I could hear Ian smirk through the dark. “I am,” I said. “You’re not supposed to shut down,” he said as if to pass the time. “I don’t […]
Something Different: Broken
Why “Broken” is unlike anything you will ever read There are reviews… and then there is this. If ever an author could thank a reader… Broken is unlike anything you will ever read and this reader takes the time to eloquently tell you why. ** spoiler alert ** I received this book from Goodreads First […]
Dreaming in Emotion
I’m dreaming in emotion. I’ve never experienced anything like this. As early as five, I remember… I was five. I was five when I dreampt that. My step-brother had crawled into an oven. The oven didn’t hurt him, but he melted the face of my doll. I’ve been terrified of dolls since. Seeing its face […]
In Reflection…
With an upcoming Blog Hop, I was asked Were there any leading events in your life in 2015? The question blew my mind. Some of you have been following from the beginning. Some of you know. But—without looking up notes in Unbreaking Me, here it is in a nutshell. Were there any leading events […]
Social Concepts
Today on AVBC, Aurelia interviewed Charlene Jones, author of The Stain. Ms. Jones touched on a plethora of topics that hit home with me on many levels. When the interview ended, my head was swimming with thoughts. I recorded these four videos in reply.
Embarrassed? Now!?
So much has changed… so much… I started following a group on Social Media a month ago for BPD. Then I joined one for depression. Today, I made one for rape survivors. So much happened today. I had a dream. It was a nightmare, but I didn’t know it at the time. I dreampt I […]
Why you should read Broken… if you can.
Most memoirs are written with a “matter-of-fact, these are the events of my life” format. The stories of the abused leave you feeling detached from the experience as the author tells about their lives. We collect the data, nod our heads as we listen, send our condolences and respect… then forget. Broken, doesn’t let you […]