Can you hear me? I’m dying inside? There’s war outside. Can you hear me? All around me are horizons. Everywhere I look, horizons. And I wonder, what’s beyond those hills? I dream of what my life could be. I dream of what my life should be. I dream of worlds beyond me. All around me […]
Defining PTSD
PTSD isn’t just for the soldier, but within every trauma survivor is a soldier. Trauma can result in symptoms. The problem is, most people don’t recognize their quirky habits as symptoms. I used to work in a call center. I can not describe the amount of mental stress it caused me. Now I know why. […]
Inside the mind of a bully
“I don’t understand why my step-brother, Shaun, hit me. I just…” I trailed off. I couldn’t explain how much I was at a loss for words with my therapist. This is one of the recent conversations I had with her. The explanation has stayed with me. I can’t get it out of my head. Passive, […]
Broken Art Gallery
I will never grow tired of seeing the work Indigo Forest Designs! Again, phenomenal work! I give you “Broken” Read more on “Broken” Now available for pre-order at… Amazon All other Formats Release on 11 September 2015. Broken will be made available on paperback and all major eBook formats. Broken is a work of creative […]
Nightmares
I’m recording my nightmares again. I started having nightmares when I was around eight. By the time I was twelve, I began keeping a dream journal. 9 July 2015 (Seriously…I am using this dream in a fantasy book!) Part 1 – I had to babysit this group of ethnic children. It was late, about 11:00 […]
Broken Update!
So…I received the full cover art from my illustrator and my editor said she is done with the first of two edits on Broken! I spent the day formatting Broken for the Kindle and am preparing to upload it now. I can not WAIT for the 17th of July! I release the cover art that […]
Just want to talk…
Hello you. I’ve missed our chats. I just finished painting the hall. It’s 9:09 P.M. I had a sudden case of “must paint the walls.” I hate this stage. This is the “I feel I have no control over my fate, my self, or my existence. I know! I will paint the walls. This way […]
Excerpt from “Broken”
Excerpt I took to staying up as late into the night as I could to avoid the nightmares and the Death Men. I hated sleep. I couldn’t eat without remembering how selfish I was…how unwanted I was. I learned to take very little. I learned to want nothing more. I learned something else during those […]
Masquerade
Masquerade. Painted faces on parade. Masquerade. Hide your face so the world will never find you. – The Phantom of the Opera by Andrew Lloyd Weber I have sung that to myself at least three times a day, every day, for twenty years. And now…I. Am tired. This thing inside of me is very much […]
The Day After
I can’t stop writing today. I do this. It comes in waves. I have a bad day, I break and suddenly see more connections. They next day, I review my new perspective and have to relearn and re-examine everything all over again. This is how I am Unbreaking Me 🙂 During my break down yesterday, […]