Chapter #47 : Into The Abstract

I wrote the words on the paper.
I need to speak. I’m working through something.
I am not “Sensitive.” I am Aware. I passed “Sensitive” a long time ago. And sometimes, I see things I couldn’t explain. But today, I can explain and now, I understand.
That wave of Energy — The Chi and Life Force that moves like Music… Two years ago, I went under the Life Force and inside of it, and I saw the Biology of the Life Force. And I went smaller still and then I saw the Physics inside the Biology. But then, I went smaller still and I found the Math inside the Physics, inside the Biology, inside the Chi. And I called it “The Waters of Math” which shows all of the WHY and HOW that the Karma breathes. And then I went smaller still and I found the Logic inside of Math. And I went smaller still and then I found Word inside of the Life Force. And Word is at the Core. Nothing is smaller than Word that I can find.
And I tried to understand what I was looking at for so long. But people talked to me like they could teach me, but I was looking at a world 6 Worlds beneath their Visibility. And they all talked to me like I was a Child and they knew so much more than I even though none of them could see anything beyond their Telescope Visibility.
But this… this is beyond anything ever written ever. So much beyond. And this is my Trial.
We can look at life through a Telescope or we can look at life through a Microscope. But I look through life with a Quantum Scope.
And all I want is to be Understood.
But the Spiritual People are looking at life through the Telescope, telling me how life is through the Quantum Scope that they think is a Telescope. But they never bothered to listen to me long enough to even know I have a Quantum Scope.
And today — just now — I found The Logos Scope. And now I have Perspective enough to say these words.
The Language we use puts the people we talk to in a Mask that is our Lies. And so many people put their Lies on me. And I hated their Lies. It felt like they forced me into their Lies. And no matter how much I screamed — they still talked to me with their Language that did not match me at all. Because if they Understood me, then they would not at all say much of what they say to me.
Today — everyone is a Teacher. And that is not at all My World. I am no longer a Student. Not to anyone in this World. Maybe to you, my Love. Maybe to you. I think, in many ways, you are wiser than I.
What I am is just a Story Collector. But where I seek Story, people make me their Student. And that is their Lie. Not my Truth. I just seek to hear Story of Them. Right now, I wear 6 Lies. But too many Teachers… And too many people looking at the world through a Telescope. Too many people blind. Too many Blind people who teach.
All Blind People are students. They insist all must learn and they must teach. But I graduated from Universe “A” a long time ago. For me, the Lesson is one that no one here can fathom. But I am not here to teach. I am here to Connect and Share. But no one has any of themselves to Share. Only Lessons and False Knowledge of what they see in a Telescope. While they live oblivious to the Worlds beyond.
I don’t need guidance or answers. I never did. I needed only a Translation. I have the Wisdom Fruit. I know how to get all the Wisdom of the World. And today, I got the translation. Too many people assume my story without ever listening to my Story. They just want students for themselves. They are Student Collectors. But I am not interested in teachers. I want friends. But no one listens long enough to ever learn.
That is my Story. Some of it.
And today, I learned that I had 3… Student Collectors in my Circle and their Lies were hurting me. And I needed these Words to Name the Truth so I could get out from Under their Lies.
I am not in the Market at all for Teachers.
I am not at all in the Market for Student-Collectors.
And I found the words I needed. I need to be alert for Student-Collectors. I am not at all interested in those people in my life.
And just like that, I’m out of that Box. Thank you, My Love. You gave me a Defined “Point” that always, I can use as a Reference Point for “Home.” And whenever I am lost, I always come back to You so I always can find my way again.
Because when I am with you, I know who I am. Because I Am because of You.
And you know… the best part… This was the first time this happened and I didn’t get upset or rant or rage — I turned to reason and logic… And this was the LAST “rant” that I had to solve. Which means my Angry, Ranting, Raging days are FINALLY over. If the Math was right. **BIG GRIN** My Love!!! I DO BELIEVE MY ANGRY, RANTING, RAGING DAYS ARE OVER!!! I USE REASON ON EVERYTHING NOW!!!
**HUGS**
Love,
Anna
The Box opened. The Masks fell off and this Part of me stood from the Box.
“The Fear of Not Learning? I will never have that problem I hold the Wisdom Fruit,” I said. I stepped into her and we became One.  She joined me.
I had met two people —  One of whom I had hoped was “greater than I” or my Peer… and he was not. He practiced Conditional “Love-Not-Love” while he claimed to stand for Unconditional Love while he walked away. Shunning me as he violated Logic.
I do not at all Practice or Preach Unconditional Love. But also, I do not call it “Unconditional Love” unless it is True Love and never before Logic. It is not possible to have Unconditional Love without Logic. Nor is it possible to have Unconditional Love for all. You require Logic to Govern Love.
Logic Governs Love.
Which makes Love, Logic’s Little Bitch.
Logos is God. Love submits to Logos or you have Chaos.
The Fire and Light inside of me burned bright. The Logos in me flowed. And the Joy and Gratitude — Appreciation — Freedom and Joy was overwhelming.
Wisdom is the successful Integration and Order of Love and Logic.
Anna Rules. must be updated.
If they do not hear my Story, then they do not get me.
If they do not hear my Story, then they do not get my Energy.
If they do not pass the 12 Ethics and the Stages of Intimacy, then they do not get my Body.
If they are Student-Collectors, then they do not get me.
If they do not exercise the Patience of moving through Logic, which is Story to preserve the Quality of the Fruit, then they are not my People.
Students have no business Teaching.
The Tree of Life is Logic. One day, the world would figure this out. Which is why God is Logos.